AHAM SARVAM

Finally he had finished it.The theory he had been working on for such a long time.He had grown up believing it.His whole childhood came flooding back to him. He had always loved school. When the other kids were out playing ball he was engrossed in math and physics. He loved them, he loved solving problems. He loved finding solutions. He felt he owed it to the world to decipher the unexplainable.How can there be no answers? Everything had to have an answer doesn’t it?

She agreed. “Yes”,she told him.

The lack of answers to certain conundrums of life bothered him. When something occured without a plausible logical explanation he found everyone else attributing it to destiny,fate or worse GOD.He found that blasphemous.He was not going to be satisfied with these answers .He would find rational answers.Yes all of them. And he is going to prove to the world that nothing is inexplicable,that there was no supreme power. He took that upon him to bless the world with answers the entire human race has been waiting for.

She smiled at him. She urged him to proceed.

There he was now after all the long toiling years finally with this theory.There were chances people would write him off calling him just another agnostic, an atheist, another one of these addled brainy morons who just couldn’t sleep without having answers for everything. Everything needed to be a mathematical equation with variables and constants and of course a perfect logical solution.Well he couldn’t totally disagree with them. That was who he was. He had always been like that. He believed in answers.

She told him he was right. He was what he was .Just like everyone else was. And told him that he should be proud of it.

He sometimes wondered how she always seemed to know the right thing and how she always gave him hope .Hope to carry on with his life.This confused him.Who was she? He never remembered himself without her.She had always been there ,guiding him,helped him figure out right from wrong,never letting him give up. During times of distress all he had to do was close his eyes. She had a quality that calmed him down.He always felt better after a few moments with her.Now this puzzled him. He wanted answers dint he? Who was she? He closed his eyes again waiting for her to tell him . And she gave him the answers.

He opened his eyes. He needed a moment to accept what had just happened. He moved slowly to his desk and burnt up all his research papers.He now believed that there was a supreme force that governed them all. He now believed in GOD. How could he not? She was within him just like she was within every single human being.He could not tell people that there was no GOD for then he would be telling them that they themselves did not exist.He would be telling them not to believe in themselves.It was all clear to him now.It was no paradox ,it was real.He had the answers he had been looking for all his life.And he found it in the one place he never looked. HIMSELF.